graduation, Idol, gossip......

So I officially feel like the biggest slacker ever. A girl in my office is graduating with her Masters degree. I am abosolutely HAPPY for her no doubt but envious all the same. We actually had our undergrad graduation party together and now she has finished and I am STILL going to class. Woe is me........:( I will be done one day though. I just have to keep on truckin'. It will be very much worth it in the end.

And the Idol upset. It truly was upsetting. I dont care what Em says Chris Daughtry was the next American Idol and he was robbed! I would like to let him know that I will buy his CD once its comes out. He will be successful regardless and I truly think that Katherine McPhee needs to be repacking her bags because she WILL be going home next week. If I was to pick the winner right now (since the title was stolen from Chris) it would be Elliot. Overall best vocal range and most versatile singer. If he wins though he will need personal dance instruction and a good dentist but I would by his CD as well. Taylor is a good performer but not the most versatile voice. Katherine good voice but not a crowd favorite I feel like. Although much like political election I didnt vote so I have absolutely no right to complain.

Last thing, I am asking that if you are my friend and are reading this I am asking that from this blog or conversation forward that I am confronted about gossiping. I was unaware how bad of a gossiper I was until I was talking to a friend last night. I guess what I thought was harmless isnt so harmless and what I thought goes unnoticed doesnt go unnoticed. I felt like a bad person because even though I dont always join in I dont stop it either. It happens at home, at work, with friends, with church. I have just gotten out of line with it and it is causing some stagnation in my relationship with God as well. I guess it is some of my own self esteem issues coming out. I feel that gossip is really a form of bullying and as many say bullying is really just victimizing someone else so that the attention never turns on you. Maybe it is a bit of that. Im not constantly talking about people or just making fun of people but it is what I think is "processing life out loud" that is really a just a nice phrase for gossip. Many times I am just talking about someone because I dont understand them or what they do or why they do it. I had to tell myself though that that is really just gossip too. I am going to do my best to not do it as much. So friends hold me accountable. Eventually I would like to be able to stop it enough that I myself can hold others accountable. For the moment though this is my thought. Any advice from other people on how they stop their self from gossip would be appreciated.
I dont think I can give up celebrity gossip though. That would just put me over the edge.

Im done for the moment. Maybe more later............