Dont let them hold you down!!!!

This goes out to my oppressed blogger friend. I feel so awful for you and the fact that people have used your personal feelings and things that go on in your life against you. The fact that your job (male jerk supervisors) forced you to delete your blog because it was obscene is absurd. Nothing in your blog was bad, degrading, or possibly embarrassing to your place of business. I just think it is ridiculous that they read each and every one of your posts and criticized, and practically belittled you because of them. I enjoyed reading your posts daily and hope that you do not give up blogging forever. The fact that you deleted it is sad and I hope that you decide to start a new one soon. Poo on them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hang in there sista!!!

I am so excited because this weekend I am attending a mom's conference. It will be sad to leave my baby girl and my husband but it shoul be a good time. Going away with the girls, sleeping in a hotel, going to seminars about mommy and marriage related stuff. Good times.

Last night I sat my husband down and had a talk with him. It was a lighthearted productive talk. I felt very good at the end. As I sat in Cognitive and Behavioral therapy class last night and had no interest in watching the film I made a list of all of the things in my head that I had to remember to do or wanted to get done. In ten minutes I had created a list of 30 things. At that moment I had an epiphany. I realized that part of the reason I feel like a runaway train many times is because I have 30 things at any given moment going through my head. Things from needing to make a phone call to planning a weekend vacation. It felt so good to get them on paper and clear my head a bit. I realized the other issue is that I give none of this burden to my husband which in turn hinders him from being the leader of the family that he needs to be. So I sat him down and explained the list and how I wanted him to look at it and see if there was any of those things he would be willing to take care of or at least remind me to do. He was totally understanding and it seemed like he actually appreciated the fact that I was filling him in and pinpointing ways to take on the leadership role better. It was just an all round good discussion. I took the list and put it on the fridge and have already crossed off 3 items. Now I have like two more already to add to it but it seems to be helping me tremendously in the few hours that I have had it. Wives....I recommend trying it. It will take some of the burden of our natural multitasking and taking on the world off of your shoulders and at least put it on paper so that way it is not an issue of trying to remember everything. I feel like I may be more productive because of it.

I think that is plenty for today. I would say to look for a post tomorrow but the reality is that it will likely be another week. If not then great but what I am saying is don't expect an update right away my loyal fans. Okay bye.

Have you ever just felt like you were running on auto-pilot? Thats me today. I feel like complete and utter crap. I have never had more colds and flus than I have had this year. Darn toddlers, spreading germs like wildfire. I have been dealing with a house full of sick people...okay just two but it feels like 200 when you are the only one to wait on the sickos hand and foot. I was bound to get sick being cooped up with a quarantined husband and toddler. I love them still though, booger- snot noses and all.
I am determined to break this though cause my plan is to do some painting this weekend. I can open the windows and get some fresh air and avoid some of the fumes also. My hallway and family room have to be finished. I have become my father with a bunch of half finished projects all around the house. I told myself I would never do that. I have an open wall where my shower should be but it has been torn out since last summer. We have the stuff just havent put it in yet. I have to do the trim in the hallway. I have odds and ends items for my kitchen but no moving on that yet. We have a bunch of rooms where we said we were going to paint the walls and the ceilings but only got around to the walls so you can see our "oops" wall paint marks on the unpainted ceilings. Oh and then the room that has only 2 year old paint on it I am repainting. Priorities are just a tad bit off.
I have come to the conclusion that I am getting old. Reason being is that I have a new found interest in gardening. I have always said how much I hated landscaping and gardening and if I was rich it would be the first thing that I would pay someone to do. I always said it was for older people. Guess what? I am now that older person. I want to start small though with getting the weeds out that are as tall as trees and trimming the backyard grass so that it doesnt look like the wild (sorry Jakey dog, squirrel hunting season has just gotten a tad bit more complex). My biggest feat to this day though is I want a small but flourishing vegetable garden. Whether this comes out of my love of vegetables, or my innate cheapness I am incredibly interested in it. So any "green thumbs" out there who may be able to guide me on how to begin it would be appreciated. I want to start out little. Maybe a few tomatoes, cucumbers, bell peppers, green onions or whatever. I just want to do something.
That is all my brain can manage for now. I ache everywhere, it is hot in here and no one will let me turn on the fan, and my nose is going to start running down my face. Woe is me...

Shout out to my posse!

It has been quite awhile since I have posted. Apologies to my loyal followers. Well the weekend is nearing and I will likely be helping my friends move alot of the weekend so it should be a pretty packed weekend. I actually think they have gotten alot done already so it will just be some things here and there.
I just have to say to all of my friends (you know who you are) that I have been blessed with some wonderful people. The friends I have now are the friends that I hope I can sit around the nursing home table and play bingo with and repeat things ten times to in 5 minutes because I have forgotten. I just think the world of you people. God love ya! I can honestly say I dont have many friends (mainly by choice) but the ones that I do have are all very close friends. I think this may be because it is emotionally draining to have too many friends. They need to be able to cry with me, laugh with me, ready to go to war with me when I have been wronged There are a very select few that are willing to take on that role with me and I just want to thank them for being willing to "go there."
My best friend and I believe are on the same page with this one. We have discussed it many times that friendships are emotionally charged and to try to take on too many at a time is exhausting. My words of wisdom for today are if you agree with any of this and have found a friend(s) who are willing to "go there" hold on to them because they truly are gifts from God.

Okay I dont know what got into me but I am all being all mushy right now......gotta stop that.
So Im getting all excited. Im gearing up for softball. It looks like Kosmos is going to sponsor an all girls team and it looks like there is alot of interest!! One of my friends from class is even going to play and she has played every summer up until the last three because she had a baby so Im thinking she might be pretty decent! It is my hope at least.

My other exciting thing is that my place of employment is hosting a "Biggest Loser" contest. It is awesome. The participation is outstanding. Everyone is really pumped and teams are even doing things like giving donuts to their competitors as sabotage. It is really hilarious. I think my team can win. We are all motivated to do well because the warmer weather is approaching and we want to look FiNe in our summer clothes.
That is it that is exciting for me now. Going home to see my baby girl and my goofy but handsome husband and watch a little American Idol and CSI (if it a new episode).
Good Night Peeps!